Sunday, August 3, 2008

Shattering pieces



Shattering pieces… sounds of shattered heart…


Shattering pieces melody cacophony rings constantly in my ears.

Harsh, it may greatly impair my ability to hear, this sensory loss is nothing comparable with the shattering effect of my heart. My ability to hear, to sense seems to be perturbed with rush of emotions, filled my crooked and tainted heart.


I should be aware. I should have realized. Now, it is too late. Too late too realize. Too late to turn back and remedy all the mistakes, the root of evil that deeply, slowly growed and empowered me.


Forlorn…


The crack that fills the heart seemed to be very miniscule in size. Tiny indeed it was. Now, I had become frail due to this. My body, my mind is longing for the things that I had lost. How am I going to recover? How will I claim back all the sweetness gained? O Allah…


Ponder…


This is one of the many responsibilities entrusted to human, to the khalifah all the world. The simplest thing to do… yet the easiest to fail from…


Peruse meticulously…


Countlessly, again, incessantly, I am reminded again. Stupidity? Egoistic? Dumbness? Numerous of answers could be thought of. Never mind of that. What is done, is done, is it? Simply, turn over a new leaf?


Repentance…???


Sick heart. That’s the early diagnose. Qalbun marrid, it is apparently.


Later prognosis?

“Not looking good, looks like you’re heading to your own doom. Unless… unless you make a drastic change. Now, or it could be too late. There’s no other prescription.”


“Remember that Allah is the onle One. He is The Cure. Ask from Him, and you will never be turned. Ask from Him, bounties rewarded.”


“…without doubt, in the remembrance of Allah, heart will find the tranquil or satisfaction.” (QS 13:28, Surah Ra’d, verse 28)


Glimmer of hope….finally…


O Allah, do give us the hidayah… don’t let us stray away from this path… protect us from the evil, the sinful actions, from any deed that might hinder us from getting the Nur… Amin…

3 comments:

daie` said...

salam ziarah
from penduduk dpn BIO 21...

mujahadahku said...

salam. i envy you for your iman (from what i read in your blog) . i need help

JHaZKiTaRo said...

salam dari Dublin.. pekaba?? saje2 bloghopping, terhop ke sini pulak.. anyway, kalau rajin, dtg laa jenguk2 blog hamba.. :)