Special Dedication To My Beloved Bro

Never thought time travels so soon
It feels like I’ve known you for such a long time
It’s hard to believe but our friendship does bloom
Like a flower that flourishes under the morning shine

Those sweet moments could never be forgotten
There will be time that we will go separate way
That will be the time that my heart will be broken
Yet the warmth that we gathered will forever stay

My dear brother listens to my adage
This world does feel so beautiful
Yet we know that it’s at its very old age
We know we can never fill full

I am writing this cause I love you indeed
I know this is not the best piece
Yet I know that you will try your best to succeed
The desire will never be laid rest in peace

Crying soul... Farewell friends...

A tribute to two of my best friends...



I keep seeing your face in my mind
as we walk separate way
None of us thought
it was going to end this way

People are people
and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go
after all this time

Rhythm starts ringing
like the end of a sad story
It's the kind of ending
you don't really want to see

I’m sorry it sounds so melancholic
hopefully it won’t bring you down
Now I ‘m a bit lost
without you around

And we know it's never simple
never easy
never a planned way
no one here could replace you.

You're the only one I know
always smile, never show anger
and I can't breathe without you but I have to
but I have to

Never wanted this
never want to see you hurt
every little bump in the road
I tried to swerve

But people are people
and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say
is going to change the will He work out

It's this moment
Feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope your journey will be easy
and easy for me

It was that moment
Feeling like I just lost a great pal.
Hope you find your destiny.
and same here for me


I pray to Allah for the best for both of you...

Viva La Islam

Viva La Islam



We used to rule the world
Men would rise when we gave the word

Now sadly we stand so low
Sweep the street we used to own

We used to hold the light
Feel the fear in the enemy’s eyes

Listen to the world would sing
The devil is down, long live Islam

One minute we held the key
Next the wall was falling to piece
And we stumbled upon our empire stand
Upon pillars of ashes and pillar of sands

I hear a Palestine child crying
Women and elders are cringing
Be their mirrors, their swords and shields
Our prayers befall on the foreign field

For some reasons we cant explain
Once we go there was never,
Never a pity soul
That was when they rule the world

It was the wicked and greedy wind
Swoop down our feet and made us knee
Shattered dreams and the sound of lies
People couldn’t believe what we’d become

Malicious enemy wait
For our mind on a silver stage
Just puppets on tight gripped string
Oh who would ever want to be like this

I hear a Palestine child crying
Women and elders are cringing
Be their mirrors, their swords and shields
Our prayers befall on the foreign field

For some reasons we cant explain
Once we go there was never,
Never a thoughtful soul
That was when they rule the world

Shattering pieces

Shattering pieces… sounds of shattered heart…

Shattering pieces melody cacophony rings constantly in my ears.

Harsh, it may greatly impair my ability to hear, this sensory loss is nothing comparable with the shattering effect of my heart. My ability to hear, to sense seems to be perturbed with rush of emotions, filled my crooked and tainted heart.

I should be aware. I should have realized. Now, it is too late. Too late too realize. Too late to turn back and remedy all the mistakes, the root of evil that deeply, slowly growed and empowered me.

Forlorn…

The crack that fills the heart seemed to be very miniscule in size. Tiny indeed it was. Now, I had become frail due to this. My body, my mind is longing for the things that I had lost. How am I going to recover? How will I claim back all the sweetness gained? O Allah…

Ponder…

This is one of the many responsibilities entrusted to human, to the khalifah all the world. The simplest thing to do… yet the easiest to fail from…

Peruse meticulously…

Countlessly, again, incessantly, I am reminded again. Stupidity? Egoistic? Dumbness? Numerous of answers could be thought of. Never mind of that. What is done, is done, is it? Simply, turn over a new leaf?

Repentance…???

Sick heart. That’s the early diagnose. Qalbun marrid, it is apparently.

Later prognosis?

“Not looking good, looks like you’re heading to your own doom. Unless… unless you make a drastic change. Now, or it could be too late. There’s no other prescription.”

“Remember that Allah is the onle One. He is The Cure. Ask from Him, and you will never be turned. Ask from Him, bounties rewarded.”

“…without doubt, in the remembrance of Allah, heart will find the tranquil or satisfaction.” (QS 13:28, Surah Ra’d, verse 28)

Glimmer of hope….finally…

O Allah, do give us the hidayah… don’t let us stray away from this path… protect us from the evil, the sinful actions, from any deed that might hinder us from getting the Nur… Amin…

Rambling and tardigrade?

Pressure yields stress. These two conditions are too synonymous in people adopting the contemporary life. Ranging from students to any white collar professions, pressure do poke and diffuse in any nook of living. Due to the extreme pressure, even primary school students who are deemed yet to be mature committed suicide as they could not handle and cope with the pressure arisen by many factors, be it surrounding perceptions even to internal conflict that nag them all the time. I myself encounter this in daily life. Either me as the subject or it is people around me, that push on the pressure cooker button.

This rampant, contagious disease is not to be taken lightly. Simple yet daunting, if you yourself is in stress, without taking extra precautions, the disease will spread to other people within your radius. Metaphorically, like an epidemic outbreak, this disease could render unexpected repercussions that I myself not dare to think of. Na’uzubillah…

Perceptions and perspectives, although sound very different to pressure and stress however are highly related to each other. All niche of areas in the world has connect itself using the perceptions and perspectives towards these destructive states of pressure and stress.

Perceptions are designed and created to favor the systems or newest trend of life that need to be followed and keep updated with. Slipping splits of seconds from this trend will make us to be labeled out of trend and not part of the so called modernized people. With so many names and epithet associated, categorizing people has become a normal part of life. I recalled reading script of rambling and ranting of my “friend”. He described me as “budak usrah” and “budak baik”. I am really grateful with his statement as I take it more as a du’a for me that may Allah does grant me with the wishes til my last breathe. However, the descriptions and the way he depict the usrah that made me sad. I wish I have the way to explain to him and make him understand the sweetness of being in these shoes. I pray to Allah to give him hidayah and pour him with blessings. Amin..

Perspective in a similar way is being tuned into the mindset of these poor people. I do sometimes confused that some of these people seemed and did show understanding on the benefits of being good and benefits of embracing all these good deeds. Is it due to the perspective masterminded by our enemy that is so powerful and so lethal? Are we outnumbered or are we just specs of dusts in their eyes? Like bubbles and bubbles on the surface of the tides? I could not paint a single picture to urattle intertwined nerves in my confused mind, yet I know there is a single answer to this question. Back to Allah and embrace Islam in full package.

Talking about nature which is my favorite theme, I recall last time on this creature called tardigrade. Sounds, like a Jurassic kind of animal yet this animal is very cute in appearance and look like a minature of a very cute bear. The most appealing feature of this organism is it is very resistant. Any harsh condition could be tolerated. Extreme has never been stored in its memory. Volcanic temperature is temperament to this tiny creature. Even icy pole area is its inhabitant.

This creature lends its survival to its simplicity and resilient. It might not be as ubiquitous as the bacteria yet it is nearly everywhere. I could not help myself to imagine that if the all dhuat are blessed with all these features. Dakwah shoud never be easier. Resilient, simple and everywhere, it is the perfect combinations garnered.

Back to Earth state of mind, we have to realize that as human, Allah has created us as His best creation, yet we will steep the lowest if we don’t use the blessings and nikmat granted for good deeds. We have imperfections and we do have to improve ourselves from time to time. Feelings do make us unique yet without proper and unjustified balance between feeling, sense and mind, we will wander around and lost our goal.

Reminisce from the past seems so sweet. The friends that are not just a pair of helping hands but people who had endured through the similar challenges and same attributes, people who had shared everything and gave it everything for this ultimate sake. I see people come and go. One people might run away, yet thousands will enjoin our journey. Deep down inside, I pray for the moment, awaiting for their returns.

Sad it may appear, I had ploughed through this journey, not just through plain road. Myriad roads had been set upon me. Name it, dusty, thorny, slippery, there are so many conditions that every time I reminisce, I do hope that I will never stray away from this path. And I pray that all of us will stay thabat in this path.. Amin…

Luruhkan daun mu..

Luruhkan daun mu..

Daun-daun kekuningan mula berguguran. Merah, jingga, kuning, dengan akur semuanya gugur. Masa untuk perubahan telah tiba.

Nun sedikit jauh dari pohon-pohon lain, ada pohon yang masih berkeras ingin menahan dedaunannya. Walau kuat angin bertiup, masih lagi pohon ini berhati batu dan tidak mahu mengikut pepohon lain. Dia memandang dengan jelik pada perubahan yang dibuat oleh pokok-pokok lain.

Terdetik dalam hatinya, ”Kamu ni ekstrim. Adakah patut untuk menaburkan begitu sahaja dedaun yang telah lama kita semai dan bajakan. Takkan nak dibiar begitu sahaja. Arghh! Aku tidak mahu terlibat dengan kerja gila kamu semua.”

Pepohon lain memandang pohon muda ini dengan wajah kasihan. Pohon-pohon yang di sekitarnya, sudah berusaha untuk menyedarkan natijah kedegilannya. Sedih, pohon ini masih keras kepala.

Mula-mula dengan wajah malu-malu dan cuba bermuka manis, ditolak dengan baik oleh pohon jiwa muda ini. Katanya, ”Alaa.. Hidup ini kan sekejap je. Kena enjoy hidup ni. Takpe, nanti tiba masanya akan berubah jua.” Hanya senyuman nipis ibarat cemikan dilemparkan.

Pepohon tua, yang sarat dengan pengalaman terus mengajak. Mereka sedar, tidak mungkin mereka biarkan saudara, sahabat malah yang mereka anggap sebagai yang sehati dengan mereka dihanyutkan oleh nafsu yang membara. Maklumlah, hidup di dunia ini yang penuh dengan kembara-kembara yang indah dan menawan. Tiada yang mengaburi mata melainkan yang manis sahaja. Yang pahit dibuang jauh-jauh..

Makin persistent dan makin hebat usaha yang dicuba, pohon muda mula rimas. Mula sifat marahnya meluap-luap. Rasa benci pada hatinya melihat pepohon tua yang pada mata kaca dan benak fikirnya sudah gila, sudah majnun, penyair-penyair yang mengalun madah-madah yang gila ”Ya.. lisya’irimm majnun.. penyair yang gila. Itulah layaknya gelaran buat mereka,” desis hatinya

Butiran demi butiran nasihat terus dicurahkan. ”Kamu kena berubah wahai pohon muda. Hidup ini perlu berkembang. Tinggalkanlah segala kefasadan jahiliyah itu. Luruhkan dedaunan itu. Tidak lama lagi kita akan mengalami musim sejuk. Di situ, kita akan berada dalam lembayung tarbiyah. Masa dorman untuk kita gamit buat bekalan masa hadapan.”

”Tarbiyah musim sejuk ini akan banyak mengajar kita. Mungkin secara zahir, nampak seolah kita hanya membuang. Meluruhkan dedaunan. Namun itu hanya ibarat gerhana, bukan seperti terbenamnya matahari. Sabarlah mengharunginya.”

”Benih-benih akan disemai. Semasa dalam kedinginan tarbiyah, kita mengekang sikap terburu-buru dan semangat membara baru yang masih belum stabil. Tidak guna hanya dengan semangat baru, seorang yang mampu menjadi faqihu wa’amaliyun, jika semangat yang membakar dalam diri tidak dijurus dengan betul, lama-lama hanya akan tinggal bibit aktivis. Aktivis yang kurang faham, alpa, akhirnya kecundang di medan.”

”Sayonara pada maksiat dan jahiliyah. Masa inilah kita luruhkan segala dedaunan lama. Dengan benih baru yang disemai, dengan baja tarbiyah dan juga bi’ah dingin musim sejuk, maka insya Allah, akan tumbuh bukan sahaja ruh baru yang mantap, malah jasad baru yang lebih utuh dan kuat.”

Dengan derus angin yang makin kuat, si pohon muda makin bergetar hatinya. Terasa indah dunia yang telah dialaminya. Rasa ragu-ragu pada dirinya akan perubahan yang terpaksa dialami memang telah lama menapak. Namun dia memang akur, apa yang dikatakan oleh pepohonan tua betul. Cuma, masih ada khilaf terasa, dan mungkin juga?

Ya mungkin juga?

Nafsu dan anasir-anasir jahat sekali lagi menyirami pohon muda dengan kelekaan dunia. Pepohon tua itu memang esktrim desisnya lagi.

Sambaran angin yang makin ribut lajunya dan makin mencucuk sampai ke akar umbi sejuknya menyedarkannya dari lena alpa angan-angan yang menerawang di mindanya. Desis hatinya, ”Aku perlu berubah! Ya, berubah ke arah yang lebih baik.”

Kalam Rabbul 'Izzati Sumber Inspirasi

Jika anda runsing di musim peperiksaan ini, maka rujuklah Quran:

1. Mengapa Allah bagi aku ujian-ujian ini? Tak boleh bagi ujian-ujian lain ke?

= QS29:2, Surah Al Ankabut, ayat 2

2. Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan Dengan hanya berkata: "Kami beriman", sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)?

(dapat ujian tanda Allah sayang pada kita, dan tanda kita masih beriman)

2. Mengapa aku tidak kecapi apa yang aku impikan? Bukankah aku dah usaha yang terbaik?

= QS2:216, Surah Al Baqarah, ayat 216

216. kamu diwajibkan berperang (untuk menentang pencerobohan) sedang peperangan itu ialah perkara yang kamu benci; dan boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya.

(kita suka pada sesuatu, tapi hanya Allah yang tahu hikmahnya, mungkin benda yang tidak suka ini lebih baik bagi kita…)

3. Mengapa susah sangat? Aku rasa aku tak mampu nak buat..

= QS2:286, Surah Al Baqarah, ayat 286

286. Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya…..

(Allah hanya beri kerja yang mampu dibuat oleh hamba-hambaNya...)

4. Ah, aku dah malas dah! Aku nak lari. Aku dah pasrah. Cukuplah setakat ini...

=QS3:139, Surah Ali ’Imran, ayat 139

139. dan janganlah kamu merasa lemah (dalam perjuangan mempertahan dan menegakkan Islam), dan janganlah kamu berdukacita (terhadap apa yang akan menimpa kamu), padahal kamulah orang-orang yang tertinggi (mengatasi musuh dengan mencapai kemenangan) jika kamu orang-orang yang (sungguh-sungguh) beriman.

(Motivasi direct dari Allah... janganlah sedih atau susah hati.. kelak ganjarannya sangat besar di sisi Allah)

5. Aku dah putus asa.. Aku mahu lari !

= QS12:87, Surah Yusuf, ayat 87

87. ... dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat serta pertolongan Allah. Sesungguhnya tidak berputus asa dari rahmat dan pertolongan Allah itu melainkan kaum Yang kafir".

(putus asa hanya sifat orang kafir...)

6. Bagaimana nak hadapi?

=QS3:200 (Surah Ali ’Imran, ayat 200)

200. Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi Segala kesukaran Dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara Yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan).

(bersabarlah dan siapkan diri, dari pelbagai segi, termasuklah belajar bersungguh-sungguh...)

7. Apa yang bakal kita dapat?

=QS9:111 (Surah At Taubah, ayat 111)

111. Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang-orang yang beriman akan jiwa mereka dan harta benda mereka dengan (balasan) bahawa mereka akan beroleh syurga, (disebabkan) mereka berjuang pada jalan Allah maka (di antara) mereka ada yang membunuh dan terbunuh. (balasan syurga yang demikian ialah) sebagai janji yang benar yang ditetapkan oleh Allah di Dalam (Kitab-kitab) Taurat dan Injil serta Al-Quran; dan siapakah lagi yang lebih menyempurnakan janjinya daripada Allah? oleh itu, bergembiralah Dengan jualan yang kamu jalankan jual-belinya itu, dan (ketahuilah bahawa) jual-beli (yang seperti itu) ialah kemenangan yang besar.

(Perniagaan dengan Allah ialah perniagaan yang sangat menguntungkan…)

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